I was chatting with a very sweet friend of mine….and she was anticipating the arrival of her soul mate after 1 years of separation……………….one must see the smile on her face……the excitement on her voice………….the way she gets lost in to her own world when one mentions her soul mates name………….she wants to shop..looks good……utilize the maximum time with him……she is so happy and excited…..all these somehow redirects me to the days when I started off my journey with my soul mate…………..days when life seemed so beautiful and wonderful…..i still remember the initial days…………….everything looked so very beautiful….so very peaceful. I knew that now I will have a person who loves me more than I love myself………and who’s love for me is not conditional……who’s love is genuine and pure………..I knew now I have someone with whom I can share all my pains and worries and who will support me and help me in all sphere of life.....there was rawness and freshness in whatever we did………..somehow over the years…..as we matured we have lost that rawness and freshness……I feel today there is more soberness involved in the love………….the craziest of things that we did is now a thing of past………..we are so confined with our daily life and professional mannerism that we somehow have lost that purity within us………its not that the love has reduced or we have become too mechanical…..i still love her with the same intensity but yes now I do think twice before doing crazy stuff………I think with every passing years you tend to behave a little too practically and accept the changes in life and prove that you have matured……………

Today I want to enjoy those lost moments again…….today when I see these kids enjoying the initial days of love……………today when I listen to them……It takes me back to my old days…………I also enjoy the moments with them….there joy…excitement …..happiness brings smile on my face also…………it revives me and helps me to think beyond my current mental status…….one of my friends was mentioning today only, that she keeps smiling whenever she thinks of the time ahead with her soul mate………………very similar to the feeling I had in my initial days……its almost like u find happiness in small small things……nothings seems impossible…….nothings bothers you….there is a different flavor to life…..the atmosphere smells differently….everything seems wonderful and minus any problem and tensions…….that’s the magic of being in love…and that’s the magic of being loved…………………and trust me blessed are those who get to enjoy these special moments of life and love....

Now does the feeling remains the same way all through………yes the feeling remains the same….just that with every passing days with things changing around us…we also tends to change and behave more smartly….and in process somewhere losses the innocence in us….......as life shows its own color and struggle, it tends to change our thought process and faith in life…….in those moment…..when we start feeling that everything is useless and start losing hope in life…………….its important to meet these new breeds of people……..I was blessed that I meet couple of people who have just started their relations……so with them I again enjoyed the initial phases of being in love……………and trust me this phases is special……I think every human soul should pass through this phase at least once……..I don’t know what’s lies in future for my friends but today I want to tell them that when ever they need a friend…I will be there…….may be I can help them when their relationship goes through a tough time……coz I have seen worst of condition and I know I will have to face even more pathetic condition….so probably my experience will help them and their relationship……………..but what ever it is….I want to see them blossom and their love blossom and hope that they never losses their purity and rawness….I hope every moment they are in love is an initial moment for them…………..I pray to GOD to fulfill all their wishes and fill their life with love and more love………

Love is beautiful…love is life………love is something we can’t define…. Its special to be in love….and its special to be loved….. Enjoy the moment….enjoy the love..

In this ever changing world….it difficult to find constant things in life. We are so confined with our self and life that we don’t look beyond…..beyond life…..beyond the love for a particular thing. As we grow we become mature…..mature I often wonder what is this words exact meaning….does it mean losing the purity in you….does it means being understanding and compromising…or does it mean accepting life as it comes and getting prepare for more worst thing in life…………..well not actually…. I think….there is more to it…..Recently one of my friend told me…. “Sau you are not matured enough………..” it still eco’s on my ears as in what does that mean……does that means that I m being myself…does that mean I don’t understand situation or not reacting in a manner she wants me to react too…or does that mean I am lost in my own world and don’t accept reality. Whatever it mean…….when that friend left me all alone…..I didn’t break down…nether did I complained….nor did I became a prone to drugs and stuff….., I just let things be as it is…..if that’s immaturity then I love it……

Often most difficult phase in life………test you, grain you, stress you but at the same time enlighten you and takes you to a new world. Most often in pain, we always blame GOD why me….why me for this pain……what have I done to deserve it????……..honestly…we don’t do anything do deserve pain. It just happens…..no one wants to be in pain intentionally…those who want to be also has some reason behind them….whatever it is the fact is no one loves to be in pain…….so now the million dollar question…..why me……………I also asked the same qus sometime back……and I got an ans…..I was chosen coz I forgot my priorities……I forgot my duties….i gave my self too much into something which was not required…….i lost touch with my inner self….didn’t bother to look beyond that particular thing in life….finally I paid the price for it……….today even though that void is still there…but I m no more in pain…..the reason being……i didn’t run away from my pain……….initially I use to wonder…how will I live and survive………..i use to cry and use to be lost in my own world……….but then one day somehow the power to fight it out prevail…the thought of not letting my pain and agony over power me, crept into my head and heart…..finally I decided that I will make friends with my pain and agony and try and enjoy the moments when I m in pain. So now when ever I m in pain and frustrated I try and enjoy the moment………is it possible to enjoy your pain??…..coz if you enjoy that moment then how can u be in pain??? Right that’s the magic…..try and transform you pain into happiness and you will find this world to be a great place………………..i always believe that when things don happens the way you want them to be…..then you must try and device a solution to make things happen the way you want them to be. I try and make things happen when they don’t go my way……..now m not scared of my pain…..when it comes….there is a fight among one half of my heart against the another….one say I should be sad and another says I should enjoy the moment……and then I try to stabilize my mind and try and think positive…………..most often then not I succeed. But there are times when I don’t and the pains win…the agony comes back….but it usually is short live coz again my focus to win over pain and the challenge to not let pain win comes……so if you can master this art and reduce those days of pain and agony and not let them win…..….life will be wonderful even in worst of condition..

That day only I was reading the blog of my friend…she was a little confused and seems to be in similar situation…………………I found a strong connection between her pain and endeavor towards peace, and mine. I could easily relate to her words and situation…..i still don’t know what actually is her problem or was there any problem at all…..but then there was this strange connection which prompted me to thought………do we all think in same line when we are in pain……….or is just a coincidence that I came across a similar minded person. But then I read another blog of another friend of mine and I could again relate to her words and situation…..now I m little confused…it is coz I want to draw similarities or its coz we all think in similar line when we are in pains…..or it is coz we are in same situation…..what ever it is……………..this strange connection have prompted me to think beyond certain things in life and now I know….i m not the only one…..so now I don’t ask why me why me…………now I go ahead and try my best to help people in similar situation find some peace or at at least hope through my words………so that while I try and explain them the facts of life…I myself learn few…….i want to bring the smile back on the faces of my friends who are going through similar situation and tension in life………………so that I too can smile through there smile…………..hope I can be successful in this endeavor of mine………….even If I can share their pain and with my effort can bring some respite in their life……..i would believe that I have been successful.