Smile....the antidotes to most difficult phases in life........smile the most effective weapon against all pain and sorrow.....smile.....it can make any day look as beautiful as you can dream off....smile make u happy from inside...........but then smile is something meaningless without a reason.......we smile at each other..showing gratitude or respect...we smile at friends or colleague...synonymous to a warm hi.......we smile at meeting....we smile on something...but always their is a reason behind those smile........reasons that are well defined..........we smile in pains...we smile in vain...we smile to hide the tears....we smile coz we want to hide............i smile....i laugh....i try my best to make other believe i m happy....i m perfect........but smile without a reason is something i have failed to utilize....today i know how difficult it is to smile without your heart into it and without a reason....today my smiles are misleading.....are unquantified....are hollow...insignificant....are undefined.... today i smile coz of the outer world.... but i have lost the smile for myself......the reason to smile have lost....lost are the happiness within me.....Today i m wondering when will i get the reason......the reason to smile again.............when will i get the reason to be happy again.....till the reason comes along...i will keep smiling not for me...but for people around me.......smile without a reason...smile without the feeling .................. amen

These days take me back down the memory lane ......i still can feel the excitement of October....the rush in the adrenal...the enthu in the air....the freshness of a special day coming...i can still feel the importance of this month....October. More than the joy of Durga Puja being round the corner and holidays coming...it was one day that i always look forward to.....there are very few days in a year that excite me to this level... there are very few moments that can replace this day in my life...... Today i know the person is not there with me........the joy have been swap with a void of the person not being there......but still m excited bout this month....till am thrilled and waiting for the day to arrive.....still it means a lot too me......still m hapi that Oct has arrived again. its this time of the year when i wan to buy the best gift in this earth...the most unique one....the one that will last in the memory forever......this is that time of the year when i wan to gather all the hapi things around so that the entire atmosphere is full of love and peace.......this is that time of the year when all problems of life is put behind and focus is solely on that day...which itself is very special.....i wish this time.....also i can cherish those moments...moments that are now my lifeline..i wish this time also i can do everything i m use to doing for past so many years.............please GOD give me the chance to cherish these days....with the intensity similar to those moments.........please give me this one last chance...........Amen... :)